Stuck like sht

In my entire life.........................................

I HATE THIS MOMENT.

Too feel so eager in doing everything

To feel so enthusiastic, passionate and so whatever

And tuptup lalalalala at the middle..........

I'm stuck. Dying. Gasping. And act so pessimistic. Oh, not to forget. I'm wasting time writing this blog.

O'Allah, please don't let me go astray.

I really, don't believe if i could get 10 A's for this SPM.

Yes, i am stupid yet lazy sitting around watching televisyen plus wasting time.

I am so unproductive. So I hope, no one will hire me for any job.

Because I am lazy.

So my life will end up, like begging money and crying, ' o people, help me help me, i am very poor'

Or, i would be the prostitute, selling myself like a bad dirty girl, nahh it would be the easiest thing ever

And i would grow my child with undefined father, i will end up like a fat negro mamma

Or, i'll just marry with a successful man. But do they want me?

But i thought, i'll never need any man.

Ahh, why am i thinking like shit?

P/s - Psychology says, depression is often the result of over thinking, our minds create problems that initially didn't exist.